Recovery: This Is My Song

I had a hard time deciding which song to choose for this post. I was going back and forth between Destiny’s Child’s “Survivor” or Lady Gaga’s “Born This Way”. Both are songs that I relate a lot to and have helped me find perspective, strength, courage and a myriad of inspiration.

But I ended up choosing “Survivor” as my song since that is what I am, what WE all are. The lyrics describe the freedom of having gotten away from the horrible prison that Ed put me in and how I am laughing him in the face, showing him that he is nothing but a little sucker who has no power over me whatsoever. I hope it inspires you and if you want to feel really, really, REALLY empowered listen to this song every morning to get into the right fighting mood.

The lyrics with my commentary!

Now that you’re out of my life
I’m so much better (oh yes I am, you tiny little bastard!)
You thought that I’d be weak without you 
But I’m stronger (HAHA)

You thought that I’d be broke without you
But I’m richer (the amount of  money I gave up because of YOU for ruining my body can’t even be counted. But that’s OVER)
You thought that I’d be sad without you
I laugh harder (oh, how often and LOUD I laugh)

You thought I wouldn’t grow without you (You held me back, a**hole)
Now I’m wiser (infinitely more wise!)
Though that I’d be helpless without you (You are helpless, which is why you destroy lives! Coward!)
But I’m smarter  (whereas you are the one standing there completely out of your wits)

You thought that I’d be stressed without you 
But I’m chillin’ (who’s stressed now??? haha)
You thought I wouldn’t sell without you
Sold 9 million

I’m a survivor
I’m not goin’ give up 
I’m not goin’ stop 
I’m goin’ work harder 

I’m a survivor 
I’m goin’na make it
I will survive
Keep on survivin’ 

Thought I couldn’t breathe without you
I’m inhaling (deeper than EVER before)
You thought I couldn’t see without you
Perfect vision (How great the world looks without you altering my view!)

You thought I couldn’t last without you
But I’m lastin’
You thought that I would die without you (LIER!!!)
But I’m livin’ (and how much more fulfilled, happy and fully)

Thought that I would fail without you
But I’m on top (Prospered without you more than ever before! Take that!)
Thought it would be over by now
But it won’t stop (I am just BEGINNING!!!!)

Thought that I would self destruct (NO WAY, YOU are the one who is self-destructing)
But I’m still here (You aren’t, haha!!!)
Even in my years to come
I’m still goin’ be here

I’m wishin’ you the best (No, absolutely not!)
Pray that you are blessed (Nope!)
Bring much success, no stress, and lots of happiness (The opposite is what I wish for you)

I’m not goin’ blast you on the radio (but I’ll do it on the internet!)
(I’m better than that) (no, not when it comes to you!)
I’m not goin’ lie on you and your family (because you have none. awww)
(I’m better than that)

I’m not goin’ hate on you in the magazines (Yes, I will!)
I’m not goin’ compromise my Christianity (I don’t really have one)

You know I’m not goin’ diss you on the internet
‘Cause my mama taught me better than that (No, she taught me to fight you will all of my power!)

After of all of the darkness and sadness
Soon comes happiness (YES! VERY SOON! DON’T LOSE HOPE)
If I surround my self with positive things (lots of them)
I’ll gain prosperity (and HEALTH)

You’re a survivor 
You’re not goin’ give up 
You’re not goin’ stop 
You’re goin’ work harder 

You’re a survivor
I’m goin’ make it 
You will survive 
Keep on survivin’

Recovery: This Is My Song is a post from: Fighting Anorexia